A week or so later I had a realization that lifted a huge weight off of my shoulders, and left me with the peace I had been searching for. Having gone to so many of my mom's doctor appointments with her, and with all of the appointments I have gone through myself, I realized that not everyone that is suffering with major health issues is going to get an answer like the one I was looking for. Some people, me included, are just going to develop health issues that don't necessarily have anything to do with the health issues we already have. The only thing I can do, is live life the best I can and when something comes up that I'm not use to dealing with, I'll see my doctor to determine if there is something available that can help.
You would think coming to that realization would be a horrible thing, but for me it was just the opposite. It actually gave me permission to stop spinning my wheels looking for an answer that I was never going to get. It also gave me permission to stop spending so much time focusing on the symptoms I have and wondering what would be next. Yes, most likely I will develop more health issues or the ones that I already have will worsen, maybe even to the point of needing surgery. That's ok. I can continue to waste my precious time tracking how I am feeling, or I can take each day as it comes and make the most of it....and I choose the latter. If you are like me and have been chasing your symptoms trying to find answers that you haven't received, maybe finding a way to move on from the search to living your best life each day is the answer. Only you can make that decision, but know that it is possible to live a wonderful life no matter what your health issues are.
If you are like me and have decided to let go of the constant searching for answers I'd love to hear from you. What happened to make you change your perspective?